MERRY CHRISTMAS ... i might

MERRY CHRISTMAS ... i might start blogging again! I'll check in every now and then to let u know what i've been up to

ok ...... so it seems

ok ...... so it seems NO ONE is checking out my blog, commenting, or following it.... not what i was expecting

this is a test to

this is a test to see if i can blog from my phone

The start of a new hobby ...

After reading numerous blogs and relating in more ways than I could imagine, I decided to start my own! I'm in NO WAY an experienced blogger or writer. I'm just open to new things and up for the challenge of pushing myself to get out of my 'safe-zone' and venture into new territory.



A lil' background of me:

Since I consider myself a down low guy, I wont openly say my name or give any personal information about myself such as: where I live, go to school, work, etc... I'm just not ready for people to find out about my "other life". However, I will tell all in this blog !!!! ... Ok so more about me ...... I'm 20.... will be 21 in November (cant wait!) Not because i'm a drinker but because i'll be able to get into places i cant get into now, so get that outta your head. lol

But N-E-who back to me...

My personality:

Laid back, loyal, and trustworthy. I dont have a bubbly personality, but i'm friendly. I dont have a bubbly personality because if one day, for whatever reason, i'm not the "bubbly" person everyone knows me as, I dont want to be asked a million questions from people trying to figure out whats wrong with me. Especially the ones who dont really care, they just feel obligated to ask. I dont open up to a lot of ppl unless I know I can fully trust them not to tell my secrets (even if I piss them off). That's why I LOOOOOOVE my best friends. I can tell them anything and know that if we get in a big argument and dont talk for a couple days, they wont go blabbing my business to any and everyone out there. I'm a very sincere guy, I try to get along with everyone and I actually do care about ppls feelings. I'm the type of guy that if I see someone who doesn't have a lot of friends and is always being teased and is considered a 'loner' ... i'll go out of my way to make them feel as if they matter because it's not a good feeling growing up with nothing to hope for, nothing to look forward to, no one to talk to, not feeling like you're normal enough to fit in, ect ... I know what it's like to have really low self-esteem .... but that's another post

My Physical Description:

Well.... if I did this .... nvm ... I've been told by too many ppl that i'm very handsome ... we'll leave it at that ( NO i'm not conceited ... )

Quick question: Why is it that if you're attractive and you dress nicely and you hold your head up high with confidence YOU'RE CONCEITED ??? if only ppl knew what it took for me to even get to where I am ... I wasn't always the swan prince.

My relationship status:

I'm single .... I could be with a girl if I wanted but for some reason I just dont feel like it right now. I could be with a guy (which I want to) but since i'm not 'open' its hard to find other guys that are like me. I'm not attracted to the femenine guys ... i'm attracted to the ones I can bring to my house and tell my mom they're one of my good friends and no one ever suspect something's going on between us. But that's soooooo hard to find and that's the reason i'm single. :( .... I think a lot of guys give me signs that they like me but i'm not one to act upon those signs ... I dont wanna think someone gave me a sign and really didnt and then I look stupid when I approach them and they dont even get down like that ... then they'll tell everyone about me.

Well I think this post is getting a lil on the long side... so now i'm giving you the opportunity to ask me anything u want and i'll respond back!

From blogging, I hope to gain new friends that I can relate to and I'm interested in seeing where this will take me.

Until next time, Jerel